To all the self-diagnosed transgender people, do you ever wonder why you're supposed to see a gender therapist?

I'm 14 and transgender and I wanted really bad to self-medicate myself and was very close to doing so but decided against it because of the HUGE risks involved. I do know why some people decide to self-medicate on hormones; they can't talk or ask their parents to take them to a doctor so they freak out and just decide to self-medicate anyways because even if something bad did happen they wouldn't even care because they were so depressed. I know how this feels. My parents would literally probably beat me if I told them I was transgendered.