Getting correct medication frustration?

I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder and depression in 2007 when I was 19 years old. I'm not sure if I gradually starting exhibiting symptoms my last year of college since it was the earliest I can remember having symptoms. I never had behavioral problems until I was 19 either. I straighten out after a year and half and decided to go to college. In the town that I go to school in, in the midwest there's really good resources for people with mental health illnesses and concerns. When I first got here I thought that I could handle myself without any medication but after a year and a half I hit rock bottom and after 2 hospitalizations I was referred to the mental health center in town where I began seeing a therapist and psychiatrist. I really liked my therapist but my psychiatrist really frustrated me because she never listened to my symptoms and side effects and from one day to another she would take prescriptions away. It got the point that I broke down and had to be hospitalized for a week because I went 2 weeks without sleeping. I gave up going back to there and started smoking marijuana on a daily basis to self medicate. A year and some months later I really feel like I need to be medicated before my symptoms get worse. On top of everything I've explained to her in the past that I really could not concentrate in class and she said it was my bipolar disorder affecting my concentration but no matter how much dosage of mood stabilizers or antidepressants she gave me, I still wasn't really suffering in class. I just want a low mood stabilizer to balance out my moods a little. I've gotten adderrall from a friend in the past and I was actually able to concentrate in class and get so much homework done and remember what I studied and read but I don't want to use it under does conditions. I'm going to call tomorrow to set up an appointment but Im afraid I might end up with the same doctor who will not no concern about what I'm feeling or experiencing. I've taken a ADD assessment that overwhelming showed that I had ADD and I've seen multiple doctors that have diagnosed me with the depression and bi-polar...is there anything I can do to make them actually listen to me? I just want to live a normal life despite my mental illness.